tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29171922110600731742024-02-07T10:36:41.086-07:00Relātive CreātiveWelcome to better sex, happier relationships, and more fun! The is the professional blog of M. Makael Newby, sex-positive and kink-friendly relationship coach, sex educator and author.
Whether a kinkster, poly person, curious inquirer, or a committed vanilla (non-kinky person), your questions and comments are welcome. Please share these inquiries so we can create a world that works for everyone.Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.comBlogger113125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-7002286308499601402012-05-24T00:00:00.001-06:002012-05-24T00:00:05.737-06:00The Harsh Reality of Glee! or Better Personal Processing Through Television<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: small;">There has been a very important storyline on Glee for the past several episodes. Coach Shannon Bieste, a very large and physically imposing woman who's also a complete softie at heart, is married to Cooter Menkins, an OSU football recruiter. </span><div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">
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<span style="font-size: small;">On the May 1st episode it became known that Cooter has a temper, and that he hit Coach Bieste. It started as a joke that several of the girls made when they saw the coach with a black eye - because who would ever hit <i>her</i>?! But that's exactly what DID happen, and after spending the episode denying the truth, she finally admitted it to the girls, at which point <a href="http://www.hulu.com/watch/357190/glee-shake-it-out#s-p2-sr-i1" target="_blank">they serenaded her</a> with the most moving rendition of Florence and the Machine's Shake It Out that I've yet heard.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Here is where I <i>really</i> need to applaud the writers. True to life, and true to my own experience, Coach Bieste did not immediately leave her husband. Wouldn't that be tidy? We could wrap it all up in one nice little message: If someone hits you, you leave them immediately, and wow, isn't that easy? </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">No, it's NOT easy, and it wouldn't have been realistic either. While I'm sure that there are people out there who have left after the first verbal or physical attack, I highly suspect that those of us who try, try again are in the significant majority.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Those of "us," you ask? Yes, Us. Just like Coach Bieste, I don't look like a woman who would allow myself to experience partner abuse, particularly more than once. Most people who meet me see me as strong, capable, self-aware, and confident. How could such a person <i>stay</i> in an abusive situation?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">For Coach Bieste, it was her fear that she'd never find another person who'd love her. It was only when she heard her own fears in the voice of one of her students that she realized she wasn't alone, they weren't true, and that she finally took action. Watch the May 15th episode to see her transformation. She and Puck do a cover of <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jYa1eI1hpDE" target="_blank">Taylor Swift's Mean</a>, and I have to say, I think their voices are lovely together.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">For me, it was the fear of ending up alone; and not knowing how to set and honor my own boundaries, and not believing that I deserved to have entirely inflexible boundaries at all; and a false belief that leaving him would have been Quitting, and that I was not allowed to quit until I had given every single thing and every ounce of energy that I could possibly give, because "I am not a quitter."</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Accordingly, when I finally left - and it was one of those dramatic 'shoving clothes into a bag and running out the door to a friend's waiting car crying and sobbing and scared for my life' events that I thought <i>would never happen to Me</i> - it was the end of giving everything I have <i>just because I have it to give</i>. Some people don't deserve everything I can give. Or, if they do in the beginning, they lose it the moment they hit me or call me nasty names during a disagreement. Them thar's my boundaries, son, and that shit just don't fly with me anymore.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">When I left, it was the death knell for "I'm afraid to end up alone." I'd rather live the rest of my life alone than scared for it, or bruised and in pain</span><span style="font-size: small;">, or suffering the beginnings of PTSD</span><span style="font-size: small;">, or walking on eggshells because I never know when he's gonna start yelling at me next.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Now, you've got to be aware... if they were like that ALL the time, we'd never have gotten involved with them in the first place! They are often very sweet, loving, passionate people, if damaged, and it occurs to Us that it's for that loving side of them that we stay. But it's also for our own damage that we stay, because no fully self-respecting, self-loving, and self-honoring person would allow that kind of abuse (unless it has been explicitly negotiated and serves some other purpose, as in a BDSM context).</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So it is that I am extremely proud to be a fan of Glee, and that I applaud their writers for portraying the challenging truths about partner abuse. </span><span style="font-size: small;">By taking the honest road, they
have allowed me to see myself in Coach Bieste's struggle, and I have
cried for who I was and what I went through. </span><span style="font-size: small;">Instead of portraying Shannon's husband as a villain, they showed him as a man under stress, repentant for his actions, with a quick trigger toward violence. I think that was the right choice. Making him a "bad man" would have been too easy. </span><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Besides, it's never really about the other person anyway. It's about your own ability and willingness to stand up and say, "I deserve better, and I <i>will</i> have it NOW."</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">To all of you who have experienced partner abuse and left, I applaud your courage. For those of you still in abusive situations:</span></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: small;">You are not alone, and you deserve better.</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Copyright 2012, <a href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/" target="_blank">M. Makael Newby</a>, All Rights Reserved</span></div>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-21807580665661933512012-05-22T00:27:00.000-06:002012-05-22T00:27:51.315-06:00E-Dating Don'ts - #2 Don't be a pest.<div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">
<span style="font-size: small;"><b>Do NOT keep contacting someone every day after they've told you they'll get back to you soon.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">He contacts me at 9 AM on Wednesday, but his profile is incomplete and I tell him so. He apologizes, finishes his profile and messages me again, and again, and again, finally asking if I've run away after reading it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">"No, I've been extremely busy living my life! I probably won't
see your profile until Saturday. Have a wonderful end to the work week!"</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">He apologizes for being a pest, but he's just so excited and hopes I'll get back to him soon.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">On Thursday, he messages me again, and again, and again. Ever single time I receive his message, I am reminded of something that I still have to do in the future, and it takes my focus away from whatever I'm currently doing in the present.</span></div>
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<span class="missed_im " style="font-size: small;">"</span><span style="font-size: small;">I told you I'm busy. I told you I'd get
to your profile ON SATURDAY and get back to you. Today is FRIDAY. Every
single time you send me yet <i>another</i> message, even a small one, you are
showing me that you DIDN'T LISTEN, and that you can't respect
boundaries. You're doing the adult male version of, "Mom. Mom. Mom. Mom!
Mom!! Are we there yet? Are we there yet?" </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Accordingly, thanks
for helping me come to a decision about my interest in you. Thank you,
and no, I'm not interested. Have a lovely weekend and good luck finding
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>NOW - I have to apologize to the offending suitor. It may not be that he doesn't respect boundaries, only that he's overly enthusiastic, and not exercising the requisite self-control to keep it in check. My mistake. I'm totally sticking by Didn't Listen, however.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b><span class="missed_im ">DO listen to the other person's response, and honor <i>their</i> timeline.</span></b></span></div>
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<span class="missed_im " style="font-size: small;">If they say that they'll get back to you "soon," or using some other term that has no specific definition as a time period, wait at least one week before checking in again.</span></div>
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<span class="missed_im " style="font-size: small;">If you have checked in after a week, and you do not get a response, leave them alone. If they are interested, they will contact you. In the world of E-Dating, you are not entitled to closure.</span></div>
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<span class="missed_im " style="font-size: small;">Persistence is checking in every 2-4 weeks. Multiple emails to a total stranger <i>each day</i> is Being a Pest.</span></div>
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<span class="missed_im " style="font-size: small;">Copyright, <a href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/" target="_blank">M. Makael Newby</a>, 2012 - All Rights Reserved </span></div>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0Portland, OR 97206, USA45.4856372 -122.594625645.4411082 -122.6735896 45.5301662 -122.5156616tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-23123127635850404772012-05-18T12:48:00.002-06:002012-05-18T12:48:20.779-06:00E-Dating Don'ts - #1 Don't be blank.<div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">
<span style="font-size: small;"><b>Do NOT contact someone when your profile is blank.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Really? What am I supposed to glean from a blank profile that's going to make me want to talk with you?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">"Ooooh, a blank profile. Finally, a complete mystery!" NOT.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b>DO put quality content into your profile. </b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Tell me a bit about who you are, and what you're seeking from this site. Remember, I'll be reading your profile looking for the following:</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Do we want similar things?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Am I a fit for what he's seeking?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Is this someone I'd enjoy talking to if we ever met?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">If your profile is blank, or populated with one-liners (EX: <u>Self-Summary</u> I'm a nice guy looking for love. <u>What I'm Really Good At</u> Cooking.), you aren't giving me enough information to determine the answers to the aforementioned questions. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">If I've got a ton of free time on my hands, and I'm on the site just to meet as many people as I can, I may choose to meet you anyway! If, on the other hand, I'm serious about finding a partner with whom I can create a deeply fulfilling relationship, you are wasting my time.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">One liners tell me that you aren't really serious. You're just poking around on this site. Which is fine! And, it may not get the results you want. Your profile doesn't have to be a masterpiece (like mine, *cough cough*), but it does need to tell me enough to spark some interest, enough for me to be curious to discover more.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So set aside an hour and put some energy into your profile. The results you get will likely be consistent with what you put into it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Copyright, <a href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/" target="_blank">M. Makael Newby</a>, 2012 - All Rights Reserved </span></div>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-56847132917430592922012-05-16T02:13:00.002-06:002012-05-20T14:50:00.746-06:00The Appeal of (Self-)Control<div style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">
Yes, yes, it's well known that I'm a service submissive. I hate to say no, I love to please, and I enjoy giving the control to my partner both in bed and out of it. However, that doesn't mean that you can simply walk up, say hello, and pin my hands behind my back! I don't know you – we just met! Before I'm a sub, I'm a grown woman, and I need to be Wooed before I can be Taken.</div>
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You couldn't help yourself, you say? Well, that's about the perfect approach to make me end this quickly, and here's why... <b>What happened to your Self-Control?</b></div>
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Stealing a kiss may seem a little thing, but stealing three, or five, particularly in the face of my resistance and discomfort, sets a precedent and a pattern. Similarly, your lack of self-control raises the following questions:</div>
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<b>How can you control me if you can't control yourself?</b></div>
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Power exchange is a complex undertaking. True, first and foremost, as a sub it's my responsibility to control myself in your service. That said, you still need to be the one running the show, plotting the course, and guiding the action. If you can't control your own impulses in the most basic of circumstances, how can I expect you to succeed with the added responsibility implicit in a scene?</div>
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<b>How can I trust you to honor my boundaries in the future if you can't honor them now?</b></div>
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You kiss me, I lean back slightly. You lean in further, grab me and pull me closer. I squeal and lean away again, and say, "I need more time. I need you to go more slowly." If, soon thereafter, you grab me and forcefully pull me close again and plant another passionate kiss on me, we've got a problem! </div>
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I do not want to say no to you, but my boundaries are my responsibility. If I speak them and you roll over them, you have just become UNSAFE. What happens when a boundary shows up while I'm tied to the bed... will you roll over that one as well? </div>
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Not speaking my boundaries is on me. Once I speak them, it's on you. If you then do not give me the space I've requested, I WILL start pushing back, and pushing you away. If you don't want that, get a grip on the larger picture and back the fuck off.</div>
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<b>How can I trust you to be the one in charge, if all it takes is a blink of my eyelashes or a flash of skin for you to give in?</b></div>
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If you are so enraptured by my beauty that you simply can't resist me, you have just given ME the power, and I don't want it! </div>
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Be the man in this relationship - be stronger and more clever than me. Don't let yourself be manipulated by my beauty and charm. There is something extremely sexy in a man who can resist me, who can say, "Yes, I see that you are lovely, and I desire you, and I'd love to touch you right now. And, I am willing to sit right here until you come to ME to be touched." Now THAT's control.</div>
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So when I tell you that I need more space, step back and give it to me. Want what you want, but do not think that you can simply step in and take it. It MUST be freely given. Taking what you want right now is the booby prize, and will ultimately cost you the game. Show me that you are strong enough to resist me, that you are in control of your desires instead of the other way around, that you have enough insight and vision to see beyond an urge to what's possible, and the wisdom to allow it to mature. </div>
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The vine of a fledgling relationship will not grow faster because you yank at it... tugging only disturbs and weakens the roots. Nurturing the foundation, with safety, honor, respect and integrity, will allow for succulent fruit and the delicious taste of success and fulfillment. </div>
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Copyright, 2012 - <a href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/" target="_blank">M. Makael Newby</a> - All Rights Reserved </div>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-3625509598486214552012-05-10T12:59:00.003-06:002012-05-10T12:59:43.465-06:00The Vanilla AdventureI only came to think of him as Vanilla after he started proudly chanting, "You like a Vanilla!" Before then he was just the guy I was dating, one with curiosity and some good instincts, if no previous D/s experience. And then he started calling me "Kitten," and it was all downhill from there.<br />
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"Downhill" in that I fell for him, fairly hard. "Fairly" in that I only got to see him every other week, due to his co-parenting responsibilities, that we knew we were coming to this relationship from disparate backgrounds (Him: old-fashioned Southern gentleman married for 19 years; Me: alternative sexuality educator, recently divorced after a short marriage), and that there was always a question of whether or not we'd find "enough" common ground.<br />
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Nonetheless, we're both what he calls "love bombs" - complete lovers and givers - and we co-created a feedback loop of sensual, loving touch, fully-expressed and adventurous sex, curiosity, open communication, and spoiling one another that transformed my experience of how a relationship could be. He gave me the chance to <i>Allow</i> myself to be spoiled by another, and to give completely to someone <i>safe</i>, and that is a gift. I hope he hasn't spoiled me TOO much. :)<br />
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You see, I expanded his horizons so much that when he recently visited his ex-GF, for the first time since we'd met, and told her all about us and our adventures, she at first recoiled. Then, she thought it was hot, and they ended up in bed together. (Which, on it's own, is so not a problem for me, though I'd have wished to know about that possibility in advance.) And now, rather than exploring his D/s potential with Me, he's going to investigate what's possible with Her. *sigh*<br />
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Now, to be fair, this happened on the very same day that I told him that I need to also date explicitly Dominant men to discover how much D/s I need. We were both sad, uncertain of whether or not his traditional mind could handle me romantically dating other men. Two hours later, however, he'd made his peace – so much so that he took me in front of the living room picture window in the most D/s sexual act we'd ever performed together! I was thrilled, and tingling for the rest of the day. I had renewed hope, and was VERY excited to continue our D/s experimentation together.<br />
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Alas, it seems that he'll be taking that experimentation elsewhere - not because HE wishes to stop seeing me, but because SHE cannot handle him seeing us both. They're wondering if the kind of openness and experimentation that I brought to his life is part of what was lacking between them before. He has to find out or he'll always wonder.<br />
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Here's the funny...<br />
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<b>He <u>now</u> (finally) understands how someone could be poly. </b><br />
<i>and</i><br />
<b>If it hadn't been for <u>me</u>, he wouldn't be back together with her.</b><br />
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Accordingly, I'm sad. I love the man, and for the foreseeable future, I will miss not
only his kisses and the addictive way that he touched me, but his
laughter, his humor, his genuine caring, his insight and self-awareness,
his generosity of spirit, and so much more. <br />
<br />
AND, I'm very fulfilled in my mission. I got to BE an extraordinary, loving
partner, and I got thoroughly loved and spoiled in return. Yay! I found
(and encouraged) a lost dominant lamb, and led him back to the herd.
He's just chosen another shepherdess, I suppose, and I thoroughly
support his choice to follow his heart, even if that leads him away from
me.<br />
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We both have investigation to do - apparently we'll be doing it separately. Losing "us" has created a big open space in my world. I choose to trust that the Universe has something even better on deck.Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-12630635586258776902012-02-21T13:51:00.001-07:002012-02-21T13:53:37.997-07:00The Risk of Being Female<style> <!-- /* Font Definitions */ @font-face {font-family:"Times New Roman"; panose-1:0 2 2 6 3 5 4 5 2 3; mso-font-charset:0; mso-generic-font-family:auto; mso-font-pitch:variable; mso-font-signature:50331648 0 0 0 1 0;} /* Style Definitions */ p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal {mso-style-parent:""; margin:0in; margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:12.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman";} table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-parent:""; font-size:10.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman";} @page Section1 {size:8.5in 11.0in; margin:1.0in 1.25in 1.0in 1.25in; mso-header-margin:.5in; mso-footer-margin:.5in; mso-paper-source:0;} div.Section1 {page:Section1;} /* List Definitions */ @list l0 {mso-list-id:868420850; mso-list-type:hybrid; mso-list-template-ids:-1832115332 67698703 67698713 67698715 67698703 67698713 67698715 67698703 67698713 67698715;} @list l0:level1 {mso-level-tab-stop:.5in; mso-level-number-position:left; text-indent:-.25in;} @list l0:level2 {mso-level-number-format:alpha-lower; mso-level-tab-stop:1.0in; mso-level-number-position:left; text-indent:-.25in;} ol {margin-bottom:0in;} ul {margin-bottom:0in;} --> </style><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><b>The Risk of Being Female</b></p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">It’s a very different experience to be a man than a woman. As obvious as that sounds, I wonder that we don’t usually take the time to distinguish just how true that is.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">For example, let’s talk about Risk and Fear.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">During one of the courses I’ve been taking, the point was made that women, as the generally physically smaller and weaker gender, feel fear more often than men. “Really?” I thought, “I’m not sure about that.” And then the point was driven home.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">While visiting Oakland in early January, I stayed at a marina. The bathhouse, about 50 feet from the gated dock, required keycard access, which I had. Early one morning, I crept off the boat and took myself to the bathhouse to freshen up. As the dock gate locked behind me, a semi-shabby man approached me. I immediately noticed that we were alone on the boardwalk.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">“Got a light?” he asked.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">“No, sorry,” I said, “I don’t smoke.”</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>“Ah,” he said, as I continued toward the bathhouse. </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">“You’re very pretty,” he said.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">“Thank you,” I replied.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">“You got a boyfriend?” he asked, now starting to follow me toward my destination.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">“Yes, I do,” I lied, smiling through my increasing discomfort.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">“You engaged?” he asked, getting closer as I ran my key card to unlock the door to the ladies room.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">“Yep! Sorry!” I said, slipping hurriedly into the restroom and pressing the door shut behind me, now officially upset.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">“That was disturbing,” I thought, shaking off my jangled nerves. </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">I was brushing my teeth a minute later when the doorknob rattled and the door shook in its frame. </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">Now… Here is the thought process I went through…</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><ol style="margin-top: 0in; font-family: trebuchet ms;" start="1" type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">Is the door locked fully? Yes.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">Can I count on anyone coming to save me? No, it’s very early in the morning, and my friend is still asleep.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">Do I have my phone? No. SHIT!</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">Do I have a weapon? No, just the key to the gate.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">Is there anything else here that I can use as a weapon? No.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">Is there any other way out of this room? No, just the door.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">Can I see outside? No, the ventilation grate in the bottom of the door provides no view and the windows are too high.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">Can I climb up to the windows? No, so they’re also not an exit.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">What if he’s still outside? Then I’ll fight if I need to. I’ll start by screaming loudly and often.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">Should I open the door slowly or quickly? If I open it slowly and he’s right by the door, he could grab me and push me into this room. If I open it quickly and bust a move at least I’ll be a harder target to catch. I just risk looking silly to anyone else nearby.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">Do I care about looking silly? Yes, but I care more about not being raped.</li><li class="MsoNormal" style="mso-list:l0 level1 lfo1;tab-stops:list .5in">Am I ready to do this? If I have to… GO!</li></ol><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">I slammed open the door and ran out of the bathhouse. The boardwalk was empty. I did a 360-degree visual scan of the area, confirming that I was alone. I then walked to the gate and let myself back onto the dock, heart pounding, body flooded with adrenaline.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">HOW MANY OF YOU MEN THINK THIS IS CRAZY? If it had been you, would you have gone through that same process? Would you have even given it a moment’s notice?</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">HOW MANY OF YOU WOMEN CAN COMPLETELY RELATE TO MY RESPONSE? And how often are you hyper-aware of your environment and any possible threats to your safety?</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">Now that I tell the truth to myself, every time I walk my dogs, I am aware of any person who approaches me, particularly if it’s a man. </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: 0.5in; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Are they a threat? </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 0.5in; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Should I make eye contact or not? </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 0.5in; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Are they bigger than me? </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 0.5in; font-family: trebuchet ms;">What’s their body posture and what does it say about their state of mind?</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 0.5in; font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">Please note that I have never been attacked by a stranger! Consider that this may simply be the way of the feminine mind. We are, for all extents and purposes, the (physically) weaker sex.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">What can be done about this? Can I turn off my potential-predator reflex? Probably not, nor am I sure that I’d want to. It’s not keeping me from fully engaging in my life, and it could actually save me one day. Perhaps it already has.</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">What I CAN do, is increase my confidence in my ability to defend myself should the need occur. Krav Maga, here I come!</p><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><br /></p><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:78%;">All Rights Reserved, M. Makael Newby, 2012</span><br /></p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><b>IF YOU LIVE IN THE PORTLAND AREA, PLEASE KEEP READING.</b></p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">My good friend, Erik Oberholtzer, co-developed and teaches the Tieryk Method, a self-defense technique designed for women who simply do not have the time to keep up with defensive systems that need to be constantly practiced in order to be effective. (Such as most martial arts.) </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal">This one-day class covers Situational Awareness – how to relate to your environment and hopefully avoid an attack, Technique – how to defend yourself when you have to, and Legality – what to say and do after an incident to avoid legal counter-ramifications. I have absolute faith in Erik and highly recommend that you consider taking this course!</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0.5in 0.0001pt; font-family: trebuchet ms;">“Erik and Ty offered me a technique to handle aggressors, but more importantly, how to feel and be powerful, avoiding danger before it ever presents.” – Amy Fields</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"> </p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" class="MsoNormal"><b>The next class will be held in NW Portland on Sunday, March 11<sup>th</sup> from 12-5 PM. Please see contact erik@securitytrainingandprotection.com for additional information, and invest in your confidence as well as your safety. (I’ll see you there!)</b></p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-1969578825417974812011-12-16T12:21:00.004-07:002011-12-16T12:36:46.009-07:00Chivalry & Service in the "Modern" Era<span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">I recently read an inquiry regarding the view of Chivalry within the LGBTQ community. I, of course, am unable to reply on behalf of that community, given that I identify only as bi-sensual and spend much of my time with generally straight-leaning kinksters. Nonetheless, I found the inquiry irresistible! And BEHOLD... my response.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">I'll start from a clear definition of Chivalry:</span> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">chiv·al·ry<br />1. the sum of the ideal qualifications of a knight, including courtesy, generosity, valor, and dexterity in arms.<br />2. the rules and customs of medieval knighthood.<br />3. the medieval system or institution of knighthood.<br />4. a group of knights.<br />5. gallant warriors or gentlemen: fair ladies and noble chivalry.<br />6. Archaic . a chivalrous act; gallant deed.</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Which leads me to Chivalrous, which is, I believe, the heart of what you're describing:</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">chiv·al·rous<br />1. having the qualities of chivalry, as courage, courtesy, and loyalty.<br />2. considerate and courteous to women; gallant.<br />3. gracious and honorable toward an enemy, especially a defeated one, and toward the weak or poor.</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Now, everything I say from herein is my opinion, based on my experience and education, and largely an open inquiry given that I KNOW I don't have the final answers. So here I go, and I'm a bit of a writer, so please forgive the length of this response...</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Consider that a desire to be chivalrous may have less to do with one's biological gender or sexual orientation and more with the level of masculine or feminine energy (or association). Given that we each have both within us, how might the following apply to the LGBTQ community? If the masculine has evolved to protect and provide for the feminine, might chivalry be a naturally masculine act? Might it be naturally feminine to receive? Masculine and feminine are, again, energies that we each flow between in this context, having nothing to do with one's sexual biology or orientation.<br /></p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Consider then that feminism has done a disservice to many of us. (That's right, I said it.) In the fight to make available to women more options in the workplace and rights in the world, the option of remaining OUT of the workplace got devalued. Accordingly, I was raised that I should be strong, capable, and independent, and not NEED anyone to do anything for me. Make my own money, pay my own way, buy my own house... basically do it all myself. Which lead to stepping into the role of protector and provider and dwelling in my masculine energy most of the time.</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">I'm good at providing for others, because I'm also <span style="font-style: italic;">very</span> service oriented (and I'll come back to Service shortly), and it is <span style="font-weight: bold;">exhausting</span> for me to constantly provide for myself. It's all providing with no receiving - YUCK! It has only been in the last year that I've begun to allow myself to want want I want, which is to dwell in my feminine as often as possible. And when I <span style="font-style: italic;">do</span> allow the masculine to protect and provide for me, and I <em>receive it</em> graciously, my life gets <span style="font-style: italic;">much</span> easier!</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">IMHO, there <em>can</em> be a two-way exchange in the providing of chivalry. The returning side is called Appreciation. It has also been referred to in this thread as graciousness. I understand that it may not be expected by the chivalrous provider, and you cannot deny that it feels good. Here's the challenge for the "modern" individual (raised in the feminist era)...</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">If we return to the definition of Chivalrous, you'll see "gracious and honorable toward an enemy, especially a defeated one, and toward the weak or poor." Accordingly, an individual raised in the mindset of "I shouldn't need anything from anyone" may perceive a chivalrous act as an implication that they are defeated, weak, or poor, thus requiring defensiveness and posturing to prove otherwise. Sigh - there's little room for gratitude when defending.</p> <p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">I believe there is a crossover between Chivalry and Service. Since the definition of Service comes down to "providing a helpful act," certain chivalrous acts could also be viewed or performed as acts of service, such as opening doors for people, taking a lady's/gentleman's coat, helping someone carry something. Perhaps it depends on intention...?</p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> </span><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">For ME, Service is something I provide, Chivalry something I receive. The idea of receiving service makes me balk, it turns my world upside-down in a disturbing way, and when I think of Being Chivalrous it feels like stepping into my masculine energy (which for <span style="font-style: italic;">me</span> is being manly). I can perform the same function from my feminine energy by Being of Service. Hmmm, interesting!</p><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">How do you relate to Chivalry and Service?</p><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /></p><p style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:85%;">M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://www.mmakaelnewby.com</span><br /></p>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-27585237620794533232011-11-22T14:00:00.002-07:002011-11-22T14:33:50.706-07:00Lessons From My Divorce, Part 2 - Success<span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Success is often judged by comparing what was real to what was possible. Give that up and you've got an opportunity to have learned something!</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />At the notice of a divorce or break-up, it's common to hear that someone's relationship has failed. It certainly </span><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: trebuchet ms;">feels</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> true enough... My marriage ended, and I'm sad, and disappointed. So I ask myself, "Did my marriage fail?" Somehow, the answer I keep returning to is, No. Here's why...</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />At the core of this feeling of failure is my expectation for how I </span><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: trebuchet ms;">thought</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> my relationship would progress. I thought that my marriage would last "forever." I wouldn't have gotten married if I'd thought otherwise! My intention to create a mutually loving and satisfying relationship has been thwarted. In comparison to what I believed was possible for my marriage, this divorce is a failure.</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />But is an empowering life built on comparison?</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />When I remove the comparison of what was real to what was dreamt and imagined, I am left with only the facts of what WAS. The facts are that (despite our best intentions and significant efforts) neither of us was able to be whom the other needed us to be; we both behaved in ways that weren't productive; and the end result of our day to day interaction was largely stressful, painful, and destructive.</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Those are the facts, and that is a relationship that I am happier and healthier for being without.</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />From that place of clarity, I can get curious about the lessons available to me out of the experience of my marriage. One of these lessons is that I am NOT reliable to know whether or not my significant, intimate relationships have the possibility of longevity! I </span><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: trebuchet ms;">always</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> think they're going to last forever! I almost always believe that we will surmount </span><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: trebuchet ms;">any</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> challenge... until we don't. I am a true believer in the power of love and partnership, and a hard-working optimist at heart. I love that about me, </span><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: trebuchet ms;">and</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> I get to be responsible for the consequences... like a lack of healthy cynicism. Sigh!</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Sad and disappointed vs. happy, healthy and curious. Where would you rather dwell?</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Now, I'm not saying that my sadness is invalid. By all means, my sadness is real, and I will allow myself the time and space to mourn the loss of what we had envisioned together. But, through my tears, I know that I'm mourning something imagined. The experiences that had us fall in love and commit ourselves to a marriage were real, and they still exist in my memory, and in my heart. They have not been lost. </span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />And that, in itself, is a blessing. I would not give those memories back... We loved, and laughed, and wondered at the world, relished our surroundings and each other's company, and experienced both joy and magic. How could I declare that a failure?</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" ><br /><br /><br /><br />M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://www.mmakaelnewby.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-20227321582594088892011-11-06T08:00:00.000-07:002011-11-06T08:00:03.245-07:00New NATIONAL Tele-Class on Boundaries & Needs!<b face="trebuchet ms">Are you frustrated? Upset? Resentful? You may have a violated boundary or an un-met need!</b><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />A boundary is defined as a line that marks the limits of an area, a division point, if you will, between one thing and whatever is not that. When applied to our interpersonal relationships, a boundary might be drawn between acceptable behavior and what's not acceptable, between what we will tolerate and what we won't. And yet, few of us are ever directly challenged to examine and clearly identify our boundaries, which creates an opening for all kinds of unconscious mischief with ourselves and others.</span><b style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Undistinguished boundaries are often discovered when they get crossed.</b><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> Everything's moving along smoothly and all of a sudden we're upset! What now? Or, if a boundary is regularly disrespected, we might find ourselves feeling resentful without a clear understanding of why. Is it me? It is them? Am I being unreasonable? Why can't I just get over this? </span><b style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />We train our partners and friends how to behave around us.</b><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> With each interaction, we show them how to interact with us, what will be accepted and what will not, how we'll let them speak to us, etc. So if it's a major problem for you that your partner yells at you when he or she is angry, but you stick around and let it happen over and over again, the one disrespecting your boundary is YOU, and no one else can honor your boundary if you do not.</span><b style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />The solution is to take the time to examine our boundaries and needs, and do our personal work to honor them in the future, which includes effectively communicating them to our potential and/or existing partners.</b><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />This three part tele-class consists of:</span><b style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /></b><ul style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><li>3.75 hours of group coaching (regularly over $150)<br /></li><li>The E-Harmony Must Haves and Can't Stands List</li><li>The Relātive Creātive Boundary Worksheet </li><li>The Relātive Creātive Need Worksheet</li><li>Additional limited email coaching support as needed between classes.</li></ul><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">At the end of the process you will have created ten Personal Agreements in a go-to document that will help you stay honest with yourself. When you're upset, this is the first place to look!</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><b style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />During this class you will learn to:</b><b style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /></b><ul style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><li><b>Recognize the Red Flags </b>when a boundary is in jeopardy.</li><li><b>Identify and honor the consequences</b> for another of crossing your boundaries.</li><li><b>Compassionately communicate</b> your boundaries and needs.</li><li>Know when your needs are being met, and<b> show appreciation!</b></li><li><b>Create a mutually satisfying partnership!</b></li></ul><b style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">It all starts with YOU!</b><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Class times are on Wednesdays at 6 PM PST / 9 PM EST. Soon after you register, you'll receive the conference call details and your Prep Work documents. The class begins as soon as you're ready!</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Session #1: November 16th</span><br /></div><div style="text-align: center; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Session #2: November 30th<br />Session #3: December 7th<br /></div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br />Since this is the maiden voyage of this fully-formed tele-class, I'm offering a one-time reduced rate of only $45/person, payable by check or through Paypal, with a limited class-size of twelve participants. To register, click the following </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/TeleClass.html" target="_blank">LINK</a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">.</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><b style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="color:rgb(51, 51, 255)"><br /><br />Your partners cannot read your mind, and your boundaries and needs remain invisible until you make the effort to distinguish them. Do yourself and your loved ones a favor, and make this class a priority!</span></b><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;"><br /><br /><br />M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-37902579888259028092011-11-05T08:47:00.001-06:002011-11-05T08:47:00.496-06:00Lessons From My Divorce, Part 1<span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">It's alright, I understand. Go ahead and say it... "A relationship coach who's getting a divorce? Isn't that a contradiction?" </span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />The answer is no. It's always easier to see what's going on in someone else's relationship than in our own - our eyes </span><i style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">do</i><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> point outward, after all - and a coach has no personal investment or attachment to the details of </span><i style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">your</i><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> life. But I sure do have emotional attachments to my </span><i style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">own</i><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> life, which clutters up the view screen and then some! The best we can do is respond as authentically and responsibly as possible when new information comes to light. This may be a sudden occurrence or realization, or something that has been building for months or years. We do the best we can with the data we have in each moment.</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Well, I have new data to share!</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />My relationship with my husband, Q, has always had some challenges. Being people who do not subscribe to the "one partner should meet ALL of my needs" point of view, we made every effort to outsource the needs that weren't getting met by our partnership. The surprising truth is that our adventures in polyamory - engaging in multiple sexual and romantic engagements - had nothing to do with the breakdown of our marriage! In fact, it allowed us to stay together longer by allowing us to Choose the key issues in our relationship. Of our top issues, communication was in a race for the lead.</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />If you've read past newsletter or blogs, you know that we've struggled with very different styles of communication. I process out loud, Q thinks before he speaks. My processing drives him mad, his method has felt like an unbearable restriction to me. He's come from a win/lose paradigm, while I've been trained to seek the win/win. He told me how he needed me to speak to him, and how to listen to him, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't seem to master it. Does anyone else relate to this?</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />If I believed in luck, I'd say that I was lucky to have the opportunity to put myself into a course called </span><i style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Celebrating Men, Satisfying Women</i><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> only three weeks after we decided to divorce. This course is </span><i style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">only</i><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> for women, and I knew that this work was about empowering men and women in their relationships with one another. So I settled into my seat hopeful about what I'd get, and certain that MY soon-to-be-ex was a strange enough bird that most of their concepts wouldn't apply to him. What I learned blew me away.</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Q is a man. Now, of course, I already knew this, right? I was not a virgin bride, and yes, clearly, he's a man. But what I mean is that he's also NOT a woman in that Men do not speak, hear, act, process their thoughts and feelings, prioritize or receive stimuli like Women. The physiological differences are apparent, but the sociological, mental and emotional ones are less so, and I was surprised to discover that my ideas of what a man </span><i style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">was</i><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> bore a striking resemblance to how I know </span><i style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">myself</i><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> to be, as a woman. I mean - we're all People, right? Well, yes, but also no...</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />I was further shocked to learn that I had been engaging in all kinds of emasculating and undermining thoughts and actions with Q. I thought I was being helpful by offering to help him keep his word, meet his deadlines, remember the details he needed to manage, and generally act in the world like the person I thought he'd said he wanted to become, etc. But I was often busy being "the better man" in our relationship. Have you ever heard yourself say, "I need a wife?" Yep, that's something to look at. And sure enough, everything they told me about how to communicate with a man was how Q had asked me to communicate with him.</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Now - I did NOT want to admit that he was right about ANYthing, so to see clearly how I had contributed to the anger, frustration and tension between us really pissed me off! But there it was - undeniable. When one can appreciate the natural design of Men, the possibility of allowing oneself to be a Woman arises, as well as the dance of partnership that can result. Embracing that possibility was much more appealing than being Right.</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />So I apologized to Q, and acknowledged my mistakes. I also started practicing speaking to him in the way that they taught me, and I'll tell you this... It is the only way that he can hear me clearly. I do it my way and I get annoyance, anger, and blame. I do it their way and I get understanding, patience, and agreement. Forgive my language, but HOLY SHIT! You cannot imagine my surprise, quickly followed by my own piss off that I've taken over 700 hours of personal development work and never yet been taught this information. Grrrrr...</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Accordingly, I'm taking ALL of the PAX (Latin for 'peace') coursework, or which CMSW is a part, and will continue to share with you as I learn more about how to create exceptional relationships that allow men to be Men and women to be Women. NOTE: These lessons may not fit every man and woman 100%. I've discovered that Q needs this kind of communication style at a level that I'm not willing to master. I am WAY too high energy for him, and I bring too much intensity to my interactions. It fries his receivers. To moderate myself down to the level that would work for him on a daily basis would feel crippling to me, and it's not something I'm willing to take on any longer. I tried, I failed, and it's not my path. However, I now have a tool that works when it's really important that he be able to hear me, and that's priceless. I also have a new understanding of who I can be in a relationship, and THAT is inspiring!</span><b style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />To learn more about Celebrating Men, Satisfying Women, visit <a href="http://www.understandmen.com/" target="_blank">www.understandmen.com</a>. There's also a course for woman <i>and</i> men entitled Understanding Women!</b><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> I always thought there was something wrong with me that I was so exhausted after spending a full day at the office focusing on one task at a time, or that my mind wanders occasionally when I'm with my partner, even during sex. Am I broken? No, I'm a Woman! You have no idea how different we can be, and when you can appreciate the natural design of a Woman, more peace becomes available.</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />I am so enthusiastic about the PAX coursework that I'm considering studying to teach their workshops. I really want to expand the sphere of influence that this work has. </span><b style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">If I had taken this course before we married, things would have gone VERY differently. Accordingly, if YOU decide to take one of their classes or purchase one of their CDs, books, etc., please provide my affiliate number, which is 554149. </b><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Lastly, I want to apologize to all of my gender-queer peeps. This post has largely been based on traditional Man/Woman stereotypes. Would this support you in your relationships? I don't know, and I'm going to have this conversation with other participants and keep listening for the difference it might make for you.</span><i style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Lessons From My Divorce, Part 2</i><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> will discuss the importance of holding and honoring one's boundaries.<span style="font-size:85%;"><br /><br /><br /><br />M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span><br /></span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-7947696233370875502011-08-11T16:20:00.004-06:002011-08-11T17:30:48.859-06:00Our Exorcism<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">This blog entry may seem off-topic from most of my entries, so skip it if you're a kink, poly and relationship purist! ;)</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />Nonetheless, it's true - my husband and I performed an exorcism of our house this morning. Or rather, we performed one or more rituals to exorcise <span style="font-style: italic;">from</span> our house whatever dark energies have been feeding on and impacting us for the last several months.</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />Now, I don't usually put much stock in these things. I may use the word "God," but to me it means 'some higher benevolent universal energy or intelligence.' I don't believe in traditional depictions of Jesus, Heaven or Hell, or in Evil, for that matter. I consciously </span><span style="font-style: italic;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >choose</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> to believe in reincarnation, because that empowers me to do what I'm doing here on this planet NOW. And, it's a conscious choice, not a matter of blind faith. </span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />In general, as a recovered Atheist, I also don't believe in blind faith! I listen to my heart, though, and follow what feels right to me. It has led me on some amazing adventures, and into a life I never imaged. But that's not the point right now...</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> Do I believe in ghosts? Sometimes, it entertains me to do so. Have I ever seen one? I don't think so. Have I seen evidence of some unexplainable stuff? Ah-yup. So let's say that I'm open to unconventional explanations as long as they feel right or resonate with me.
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<br />Now, I'll admit, our relationship wasn't perfect before we got married - we are human, and each have our own triggers, and our own histories and indoctrinations to manage. (Is a relationship between two human individuals ever truly Perfect for more than a few seconds here or there? Maybe during simultaneous orgasms... *wink!*) Nonetheless, we were managing them successfully, and were present to our deep love, commitment, and partnership with one another. Then we got married, and things slowly began slipping.</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />He got more and more violent, more paranoid, likely to rage out at one misconstrued phrase, and more likely to blame me for "everything that's wrong." I became more easily triggered as well, more defensive, snippy, and jumpy. I became a victim in my heart, extremely reactive, and descended into a swirl of confusion... "Should we remain married?" "Am I broken?" "Is this hopeless?" "Can I handle this?" "Should I leave? or Should I stay?!" and "What would happen to our animals?!"</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />Now, if you've known me in person, then you know that THIS is not me! I am NOT a timid, scared, victim, doubting my own ability to make a difference with myself or anyone else, and that finally hit home two nights ago. </span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />I crawled into bed next to Q and said something about what's been going on, and he said, "I seriously don't think this is US. Whatever we've been processing, it's not OURS."</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />And just like that - the fog of oppression lifted, and I saw a star in the sky of my mind, the glimmer of hope and the promise of restoration. And I got ferocious in reclaiming what is truly MINE.
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<br />I said, "NO KIDDING! This is NOT ours, not You, and not Me! I've never experienced this before, and this wasn't us in Colorado. Hell, if this IS us, we're out, because this is intolerable. But I don't think this is ours..."
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<br />And Q said, "I think there's something in the house."</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />Here's what you should know about our house... it was a meth house before our landlord bought and renovated it. And here's something else of interest - Q went through the worst suicidal depression of his entire life in Oct./Nov. 2009, during the first 8 weeks he lived here. When we look back, the abuser/abused patterns we've been playing out really hit home after we got married in Sept. 2010. Since then, I've twice been overcome by the emotions and reactions of someone's who's been sexually abused, and that's not me. (see blog entry of Dec. 2010 for an account of the first such instance) WTF?!</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />So this morning we exorcised from the house whatever energies were hanging on and expressing through us. I'll save you the details of the ritual we enacted and simply say that I still smell like sage smoke. But here's what else I can say...</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />1) The word "husband" has completely changed resonance in my mind and heart. Yesterday it was flavored with "trapped," "baggage," heaviness and concern. Today it has been restored to "something to be proud of," "badge of honor," "partner," and a very light feeling of faith.</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />2) The air is clearer. I now walk from room to room with a clear mind, without the mental fog of frustration and confusion to which I'd become so accustomed.</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />3) I'm less defensive. EX: I was listening to a menu on the phone when Q started talking to me, and I reflexively shushed him loudly, which he hates. He added an F-bomb to his response. I'd have gone into a world of justified "not fair" and "undeserved" yesterday. Today I simply said, "Hey, you don't need to swear at me." And that was IT. That's ALL it was, with no defensiveness. </span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />4) I'm harder to trigger! Besides the above example, Q didn't turn off the coffee maker after filling his cup this morning. Yesterday I'd have seen that and thought, "ARGH! Again? Why can't he remember such a simple thing?! How often do I have to point this out?!" etc. Today it was, "hunh," and then I turned it off. DONE. He also said he'd take out the recycling when he left today. He didn't. I saw it and thought, "Oh well. We'll do it later." No harping, blaming, growling, or dramatic sighs involved. Yay!</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />THIS is the me that I fondly and lovingly remember. This is an opening to reclaim the relationship, and the marriage, that I enjoy. (because I certainly have NOT enjoyed what we've been through!) AND I am grateful for the lessons we've learned and the processing we've done in the meantime. That said, now it's time to reclaim Our shared light, which is sizable, and banish the darkness. </span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">
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<br />Be gone! See ya! Buh-bye!</span> <span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" >
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<br />M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span> Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-74389485338224110002011-07-17T08:00:00.001-06:002011-07-17T08:00:01.315-06:00The 'Rules' of Communication<p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><strong></strong>Over the last year or so, my husband and I have had some challenging miscommunications. He's accused me of being disrespectful ~ I'm not even sure what that means. He's accused me of being defensive ~ I say that I'm just sharing a different point of view. I perceive him as impatient ~ he says that I never get to the point. Recently, however, we've realized what's been happening. The key lies with the training we received from our families of origin.</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">I'm referring here to the spoken or unspoken expectations for communicating in the family in which you were raised.<br /></span></p><p style="margin-left: 60px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">• How did you have to speak to be heard? Loudly? Softly? Passionately? Persuasively? </span></p> <p style="margin-left: 60px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">• How did you have to organize your thoughts in order to be accepted and validated? Stream of consciousness? Logical progression?</span></p> <p style="margin-left: 60px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">• How did you have to behave or act to be respected? Deferential? Confrontational?</span></p><p style="margin-left: 60px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">• Was interrupting always allowed, never allowed, or only under certain circumstances?</span></p><p style="margin-left: 60px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">• How were disagreements handled, and what did you do when you wanted to convince someone of something?</span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">In order to gain the approval of our parents, and survive within the family structure, we must learn our parents' rules. To be truthful, however, given that these rules are often unspoken, the best we can do is to glean <i>our own perception</i><span style="font-style: normal;"> of them. No two siblings are likely to have adopted a matched set of expectations. Additionally, being a rebellious youth makes no difference. Whether we follow them or flaunt them, we are still acting in relationship to our perception of 'The Rules.'</span><br /></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">I propose that this training, as long as it remains undistinguished <i>as such</i><span style="font-style: normal;">, becomes an invisible context for all communication within our lives - largely unconscious rules that we observe or reject almost unerringly, and by which we reflexively judge others.</span><br /></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">For example, Q was raised in a household with a military father. When it came to the realm of interpersonal communication, he perceived his parents' primary directive as follows: <i>Silence is Golden</i><span style="font-style: normal;">. What this meant was:</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-style: normal;"><br /></span></span></p> <p style="margin-left: 60px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">1) If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all.</span></p> <p style="margin-left: 60px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">2) Think silently before you open your mouth to respond.</span></p><p style="margin-left: 60px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">3) Get immediately to the point.</span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><span style="font-size:100%;"><span></span></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span></span>Anything else was considered a sign of disrespect. Additionally, unspoken within this construct was the understanding that the person on the lower side of the power dynamic (EX: Child has less power than Parent) could never win - they could only <i>survive</i><span style="font-style: normal;"> without losing.</span><br /></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">On the other hand, the only child of an English professor, I grew up in a household in which I perceived the primary rule for communication as: <i>Understand & Be Understood</i><span style="font-style: normal;">. This meant that successful disagreements followed a logical progression:</span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-style: normal;"><br /></span></span></p><p style="margin-left: 49.5pt; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">1) Explain your thought process so people can understand how you arrived at your current position.</span></p> <p style="margin-left: 49.5pt; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">2) Ask and listen to understand how others arrived at their current positions.</span></p><p style="margin-left: 49.5pt; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">3) Identify the misunderstanding that caused the upset in order to avoid the same mistake in the future.</span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">The result of this process was the agreement that no one was wrong - it was just a misunderstanding or a learning opportunity - so everyone wins in the end.</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">Perhaps you can see the inherent disconnect between these two approaches! One of us gets upset and I start explaining my reasoning and asking about his. Since I didn't think silently first, and I'm clearly not getting to the point, this is seen by Q as a sign of disrespect. However, the inquiry IS the point in my world, and a sign of respect in itself since I'm searching for a way we can <i>both</i><span style="font-style: normal;"> come out winners. The more I inquire and explain, the more he perceives defensiveness, which he's driven to exploit so that he can gain control of the power dynamic and be the one who wins.</span><br /></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">Yikes!</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">All hope is not lost, however. Recognizing our Rules has given us some leverage against them. Q is now able to realize, during some arguments, that I don't intend any disrespect and to modify his emotions accordingly. I have been able, on occasion, to keep my mouth shut while he's silently processing his response <i>as</i><span style="font-style: normal;"> an intentional sign of respect, knowing how important that is to him. It's not perfect, </span><i>and</i><span style="font-style: normal;"> it has made an appreciable difference.</span><br /></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p> <p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">Are either of our background contexts likely to change dramatically? Probably not. They're deeply ingrained, automatic, and I actually like my method! It works beautifully with most of the people I've known. However, sometimes it runs me instead of the other way around, compelling me to ask more questions and explain my position when understanding what happened is really not the most pressing matter.</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;">As with all areas of life, the more conscious I can become, the more control I'll achieve over my reflexive reactions. When I'M the one in charge of my response, my partners get to communicate with the real me, and my relationships benefit. The best I can do for now is to keep practicing!</span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><br /></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size:85%;">M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span><br /></span></p>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-50747446614660776082011-06-15T14:00:00.000-06:002011-07-15T11:34:27.522-06:00Full-Bodied Fellatio: Mouth Skills<span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >Excerpt from Mouth Skills:</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">"Suction – In order to practice suction, we’ll work with your fingers, so choose one to suck on. Put your finger into your mouth and get a good lip seal so that you get nice, tight suction when you suck on it like a straw. You’ll know it’s right because your cheeks will suck in. Next, practice maintaining the feeling of suction as you move the length of your finger in and out of your mouth. Keep that lip seal!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Now see if you can work your tongue against your finger – around the sides and flicking back and forth across the tip – while maintaining suction. Yes, it will be different on a penis – a penis has greater girth (or width). Accordingly, feel free to practice this technique on travel-sized shampoo bottles, or anything with larger width and a fairly smooth texture. (A rough texture or wavy surface could get in the way of your lip lock.) I hope it’s a given that you’ll practice on a dildo. Just wash it first!"</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">More mouth, tongue, cheek, lip and teeth tricks available through the Web Store at </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/WebStore.html">www.mmakaelnewby.com</a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style=";font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" >M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-27703379513728229632011-06-01T08:00:00.004-06:002011-06-01T08:00:13.337-06:00Full-Bodied Fellatio: Consensual Power Exchange<span style="font-weight: bold; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Forced Gagging – The Power Dynamic:</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br />"I suspect that we’ve all seen or heard the story of a woman giving a man a blowjob. He puts his </span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">hand on the back of her head and pulls her deeper onto his cock. She chokes and angrily pushes away. She’s righteously pissed off. Why? Because this was a non-consensual act. He took control of her body without her permission. That’s NOT what we’re about in this section.</span><span style="font-weight: bold; font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />CONSENSUAL POWER EXCHANGE (The very, very basics.)</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Consent – In this section, we’re talking about Consensual Power Exchange. The giver willingly gives the receiver the power to control his/her movements and actions, and the receiver takes responsibility for that power."</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />To learn more about the three steps involved in how I recommend that you phase your way into Forced Choking & Gagging, visit my </span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >Web Store at </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/WebStore.html">www.mmakaelnewby.com</a><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >.</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" ><br /><br /><br /><br />M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-88684892610314184502011-05-30T08:00:00.003-06:002011-05-30T08:00:10.034-06:00Full-Bodied Fellatio: Gagging & Choking<span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >Excerpt from Gagging & Choking:<br /></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">"What’s Sexy? – I was once deep throating a fairly large partner, and the longer we went the more my gag reflex kicked up. (This is normal, as mentioned.) At one point, I gagged hard enough to vomit a tiny amount into my mouth. I raced into the bathroom and spit into the sink.</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />I returned to the bedroom and said, “That is SO not sexy.”</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />His response? “Well, now we know that YOU don’t think that’s sexy.” Hrm? What?</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Your idea of what’s sexy may not be the same as that of your partner, and many receivers find gagging incredibly hot. Nonetheless, it can be a mental and emotional challenge for givers, not to mention the physical discomfort it creates. So here’s a tip for the receivers…</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Verbal Reassurance – Tell your partner how turned on it makes you when she chokes on your cock. Don’t just expect her to know, speak it out loud. Particularly when she’s doing something that may be challenging to her self-image, your reassurance that she’s not diminished in your opinion of her is very important."</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />More tips and tricks for intentional gagging and choking are available through the Web Store at </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/WebStore.html">www.mmakaelnewby.com</a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">.</span><span style=";font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" ><br /><br /><br /><br />M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-17425066737926284032011-05-27T08:00:00.003-06:002011-05-27T08:00:02.731-06:00Full-Bodied Fellatio: Sloppy Blowjobs<span style="font-weight: bold; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Excerpt from Sloppy Blowjobs:<br /></span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">"Set the Scene – Not everyone is willing to drool and spit all over the comforter under which they’ll be sleeping in 30 minutes. If you, or your honey, are concerned with hygiene or tidiness, throw a washable blanket or a towel over the bed, sofa, or other intended play space. <span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">“Concerned about the bed spread” is</span> not a great mental space for giving awesome head."</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-family:trebuchet ms;" ><br /><br />More tips and tricks for getting sloppy are available through the Web Store at </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/WebStore.html">www.mmakaelnewby.com</a><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">.</span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" ><br /><br /><br /><br />M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-91527235967607522052011-05-25T08:00:00.000-06:002011-05-25T08:00:04.721-06:00Full-Bodied Fellatio: Your Gag Reflex<span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >Excerpt from Deep Throating:</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br />"Love it or hate it, the gag reflex is your body’s natural defense against choking on foreign objects, and a penis counts as a foreign object. According to at least one study, however, up to one-third of healthy people don’t even have a gag reflex! If you are one of those lucky bitches, congrats! The rest of us will just have to find a way to deal with it. Here are some suggestions...</span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" ><br /><br />THE GAG REFLEX</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Get Numb – Run the tip of your tongue backward along the roof of your mouth until the bony feeling gives way to soft flesh. This is your soft palate. The gag reflex is often triggered when something touches the soft palate, so if this little exercise made you twitch, consider the following... Topical numbing agents can be used to numb your soft palate thus diminishing your gag response.</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />Good Head by Doc Johnson is a gel. Squeeze some onto a Q-tip, rub it onto your hard palate, and then swallow. This will pull the gel back onto your soft palate. Apply Chloraseptic or Comfortably Numb Throat Spray as if you were using them to treat a sore throat. Aim, and spray.</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><br />WARNING: The problem with having a numb throat is that you cannot feel any damage you may be doing. There are times when it hurts because you should stop! Be aware of the risks.</span>"</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br /><br />More tips and tricks for helping you to give great throat are available through the Web Store at </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/WebStore.html">www.mmakaelnewby.com</a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">.</span><span style=";font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" ><br /><br /><br /><br />M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-68052055069090002572011-05-23T08:00:00.002-06:002011-05-23T08:00:06.935-06:00Full-Bodied Fellatio: Deep Throating<span style="font-weight: bold; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Excerpt from Deep Throat Skills:</span><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">"The “Yawn” Muscle – Place your hand around your throat with full skin-to-skin contact all the way from your thumb to the tip of your index finger, as if you were going to choke yourself. Now yawn. Feel that?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">A yawn is precipitated by contracting the back, or base, of your tongue, pulling it down toward your lower jaw. Put your attention on the back of your tongue and yawn again. If a doctor has ever used a tongue depressor to look at your throat, you may recognize the sensation. Your tongue is one big muscle, and a damn strong one, so contracting it in that way pushes the soft tissues of your throat further open. Can you see how this is useful?"</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >More tips and tricks for helping you to give great throat are available through the Web Store at </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/WebStore.html">www.mmakaelnewby.com</a><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" >M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-28209702589994479262011-05-19T08:00:00.002-06:002011-05-19T08:00:09.656-06:00Full-Bodied Fellatio: Balls, Butts & What's In Between<span style="font-weight: bold; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Excerpt from Balls, Butts, & What’s In Between:</span><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">"Penetration – When preparing to penetrate the asshole with your fingers, I highly recommend that you wear a latex or nitrile glove or a finger cot (a finger condom), particularly if you use your hands roughly for work or play, or have any tiny cuts or scratches, bite your nails heavily, etc. Any microabrasions on your fingers will provide an opportunity for infection from bacteria or virus in the anus. If you won’t be wearing a glove, please trim your nails close to the quick, being careful not to cut yourself, and file the edge of your nail so that it’s not sharp.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Read my January 8th, 2010 blog post at </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com">http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</a><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> for a description of how to introduce a partner to anal penetration for the first time.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">That said, I’ll assume from here out that you have explicit permission for anal play, and that it is not your partner’s first time. Accordingly, and starting slowly unless your partner has expressed a differing desire, using one finger, or more if your partner is highly experienced, press your fingertip upward and into the anal canal to whatever depth is enjoyable for you both. And then...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Prostate Massage – ..."</span><br /><br /> <span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">To learn about prostate massage and other tricks for playing with balls, asses, and what's in between, visit the Web Store at </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/WebStore.html">www.mmakaelnewby.com</a><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">!</span><br /> <br /> <br /> <span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-size: 85%;">M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-2493511435725894452011-05-16T08:00:00.001-06:002011-05-16T08:00:10.149-06:00Full-Bodied Fellatio: Hand Skills<span style="font-weight: bold; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Excerpt from Hand Skills:</span><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">"The Rotating Twist – This is a two handed maneuver that can be executed with full palms or with single fingers and thumbs – adapt your method to the size of your partner. Grasping the shaft of the penis with both hands, wrists aligned, dominant hand on top of the other, rotate your wrists away, in opposite directions, as you slide up the shaft, until your wrists again align on the opposite side of the penis. Reverse direction and slide back down to the base. Repeat while varying speeds and the application of pressure (tight vs. loose)."</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">More hand, palm and finger tricks are available through the Web Store at </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/WebStore.html">www.mmakaelnewby.com</a><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">!</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-size: 85%;">M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-7557368920164265902011-05-09T08:00:00.001-06:002011-05-09T08:00:06.899-06:00Full-Bodied Fellatio: Sensual Texture<span style="font-weight: bold; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Excerpt from Sensual Texture & Mouth Skills:</span><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">"Eye Contact – From the first moment you decide to share this experience, eye contact can be very hot. You can use flirty eyes, nasty eyes, demanding eyes - anything you choose to express yourself while your mouth is full. Sometimes it hurts my eyes to try to look up at his face while my mouth is occupied below, but the response is worth it. (Unless you are not allowed to make eye contact, in which case the hotness comes from obeying the rules.)"</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Available through the Web Store at </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/WebStore.html">www.mmakaelnewby.com</a><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" >M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-19566656250586607622011-05-07T08:00:00.001-06:002011-05-07T08:00:02.999-06:00Full-Bodied Fellatio: Communication<span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Pick only what most interests you... Each section of my Fellatio manual is available individually for $1.49 through my </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/WebStore.html">web store</a><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">. Keep reading to learn a supportive way to communicate when your partner does something sexual that you don't enjoy.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Excerpt from Communication:</span><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">"If my goal is to provide pleasure, telling me what you enjoy only sets me up for success. And who doesn’t love succeeding?! Conversely, if you wish to pleasure me, telling you how to turn me on is a gift. It makes your life easier and reassures you that I don’t expect you to read my mind.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">This applies to what is not working as well as what does. Now, be gentle! It’s very easy to take it personally when my efforts are not having the desired result. Let’s examine two approaches to correcting a partner who’s handling you in a way that you don’t like.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: trebuchet ms;">“Not like that!”</span><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">This response is vague. I know that I’ve done something you don’t like, but I’m not sure what part of what I’ve been doing is the culprit – was it my hands, my lips, did my hair get in the way, did you get scraped by my teeth... what? I’m left confused and possibly frustrated. I did something wrong, and I don’t know how to fix it. Let’s look at a softer approach.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: trebuchet ms;">“I like it when you lick the head of my cock instead of biting it, would you do that?”</span><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">This approach is kind, gentle, supportive, and clear! I know what I did that you don’t like – biting. Now I can avoid doing that in the future. I also know what you DO like – licking the head of your cock! I can do more of that! You also just praised me for licking you in the past, and I’m left empowered and appreciated. Which response do you think will get you a better blowjob? </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">(NOTE: If being corrected harshly or forced to fail is a turn-on, the above advice no longer applies!)</span>"<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms; font-size: 85%;">M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-74075839662254754472011-05-05T13:45:00.004-06:002011-05-05T13:51:38.202-06:00Full-Bodied Fellatio: A Word About Pronouns<span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">My Fellatio manual is finally available through my </span><a style="font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.mmakaelnewby.com/mmakaelnewby.com/WebStore.html">web store</a><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> for only $9.49! The following several blogs will share small snippets from various sections of the manual to give you a tiny taste of what's there. Enjoy!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-family: trebuchet ms;">A Word About Pronouns:</span><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">"In this document, I will refer to the receiver with masculine pronouns like He or Him, and to the giver as She and Her. This is in no way meant to exclude male-bodied givers, or female-bodied persons who identify with masculine gender. The majority of these techniques also apply to the act of blowing strap-on penises, in which case intention is of paramount importance.</span>"<br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Do you automatically assume a particular gender association when you meet someone? Who do you know who might prefer a different gender pronoun?</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" >M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-48392454549060205322011-05-02T08:06:00.001-06:002011-05-02T08:06:00.600-06:00Relationships in Song<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I began my college career studying musical theatre and it remains one of my great joys in life. Alas, I'm not a great actor! Nonetheless, I still listen to the soundtracks and have lately been noticing songs that tell relationship stories. Here are a few of them:</span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" ><br /><br />Analysis, Angst, and Hope?</span> <span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br />"Now - Later - Soon" from Stephen Sondheim and Hugh Wheeler's 1973 masterpiece </span><span style="font-style: italic;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >A Little Night Music</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> gives us an ear into the personal musings of three family members. Fredrik, husband and father, wonders, as only an attorney can, whether or not he should attempt to ravish his young, and still virginal, wife, or just take a nap. Henrik, his son, a seminary student who's only a year older than his new step-mother, laments the fear that his life will never truly begin, and Anne, Fredrik's bride, hopes that soon she'll come to desire her dear, if old, husband. A song of four sections, each character has a solo, the lyrics and melody of which finally overlap into a full and luscious layering of passion unrequited and unexpressed. Beautiful.</span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" ><br /><br />20/20 Hindsight.</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br />"I Know Him So Well" from </span><span style="font-style: italic;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >Chess</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> presents a duet between the wife and mistress of the top-ranked international chess player. Each has fallen for him, and - looking back - can see that he was never a one-woman man. But they fell first, and now here they are, falling apart. Someday I'll perform this duet, I swear! It's a gorgeous moment of recognition.</span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:trebuchet ms;" ><br /><br />Flirting!</span> <span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><br />"Light my Candle" from the award-winning musical </span><span style="font-style: italic;font-family:trebuchet ms;" >RENT</span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> allows us to listen in on the first introduction between the characters of Roger, a struggling composer and rocker, and Mimi, an erotic dancer. Mimi playfully walks the line between flirting and seduction, and leaves Roger bewildered and wanting more. What fun!</span><span style=";font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" ><br /><br /><br /><br />M. Makael Newby, 2011 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2917192211060073174.post-27057083933583193052011-04-28T12:00:00.001-06:002011-04-28T12:00:00.667-06:00Inquiring Into Female Desire<span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">As you can tell from the previous article, female desire is quite an issue today in the world of human sexuality. What you may not realize is that there are multiple camps of thought - some that promote the creation of a "pink viagra" and others arguing that it's all mental and emotional. And between these camps and many other, much (as one author puts it) academic cat-fighting.</span><br /><br /><a style="color: blue; text-decoration: underline; font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://sexgenderbody.com/content/making-sense-female-sexual-dysfunction" shape="rect" target="_blank">This blog</a><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">, which I recommend reading, makes a good point that some of the causes of modern FSD (Female Sexual Dysfunction) are sociocultural. To quote:</span><br /><div style="font-family: trebuchet ms;"> <div style="overflow: hidden; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: transparent; text-decoration: none; border: medium none;" align="left"><br />"For one thing, our expectations of sex have outgrown our knowledge base. The average child is exposed to 14 thousand sexual images a year. Most of which bear no resemblance to the reality of human sexual response. I don't know how many movie love scenes I have watched over the years with no clitoral stimulation, instant intercourse, and simultaneous orgasms for both parties -- an unlikely sequence of events. And let's not even get started on the lack of realism in porn.<br /><br />Then we have the self-help genre and the Oprah machine continually reminding us of just how important sex is to a happy relationship. All the while, our young grow up under abstinence based sex ed programs that tell them<i> nothing</i> about how to actually have "mind-blowing" sex. Factor in a culture still mired in sexism, sexual repression, and a hatred of real (but not pornified female sexuality) -- and you have a recipe for sexual dysfunction.<span>"<br /></span></div> </div><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">She also makes a smart review of the attitudes toward women's sexuality during the middle ages and Victorian Era, providing a chilling measure of context. Ultimately, research on multiple fronts will be necessary. Now, who'll fund it?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">Again, I offer </span><a style="color: blue; text-decoration: underline; font-family: trebuchet ms;" href="http://www.sexualhealth.com/article/read/disability-illness/rediscovering-sex-after-disability-illness-trauma/243/" shape="rect" target="_blank">this link</a><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">, to an article reviewing several researchers' theories of the human sexual response cycle.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;" >M. Makael Newby, 2010 - All Rights Reserved - http://mmakaelnewby.blogspot.com</span>Makaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13427863206875261314noreply@blogger.com0